You can find the full questionnaire here. I'm going to do a few random questions as the mood strikes. :)
49. Is this person afraid of dying? Why or why not?
Emmanuel has never been particularly afraid of dying, at least not in and of itself. He's not really afraid of his time on earth ending, or being in pain, or anything like that. What he is nervous about when he's younger is what happens after he dies. He knows that some people stay behind, obviously he's been able to interact with them his whole life. But that isn't an existence he'd ever want for himself, to be trapped on earth forever, unable to move on. On the other hand he also knows there is another place to move on to, but he doesn't know what it is. Is it heaven or hell like his father preached? Would he even be allowed in heaven if it exists? He's never spoken to anyone who has passed on, though he does know there is a peace that comes with it. It's the fear of the unknown that makes him nervous.
As an adult, Emmanuel has mostly moved beyond that worry. However he trades it for a different one. As a child he thought of death as something entirely personal, as if it would only affect him. But as an adult he sees his family and lovers, and even the people he works for and wonders (fears) how it would affect them. He worries about leaving his sister Ruth and their mother behind. About Isobel and Tomás outliving him. And about the people he fights with getting hurt, or the curing remaining undiscovered without his assistance. This is something he deals with and tries to reconcile as time goes on.
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